Victor (my new laptop) has shown me a wonderful world of HD videos and larger screens to watch Netflix on. So now the paper I need to write with these beautiful new keys is still not typing itself.
I thought going into college I would have this over whelming sense of accomplishment, I do in some cases (art.. ). But its been so long since I was in school that I think I’m scared that I will fail in the end no matter what. The worst fear I have is letting down the people around me (my roommates my mum, my boss….etc). Because in the end the choice to go to college for the first time was mine alone and all together a very selfish choice. I know that my own actions are to blame, it’s my will power and the determination that I have to prove I’m not a fuck up. So all in all I guess it cant be helped. I WILL NEED TO START MICROMANAGING MYSELF AGAIN! I will in fact now just put on music that makes me smile (SPG), read the assignment, and write my essay. Sorry I feel now as if this was pointless… oh well!